| One Year Later |
[Aug. 29th, 2007|08:49 pm] |
R u kidding me? So i tried to kill this thing many a time and it seems that i can never finish the job. I just don't have the heart hah. So maybe i can gain some piece of mind by once again typing in my thoughts and feelings on things. Also Theories and shit. So time skip one year. Many things have changed. So i guess i could go over those.
Physically, i guess i loss even more weight. This i can attribute to the major increase in physical activity. i just think this is my innate body type ( maybe a bit heavier, i don't know). When i was a kid i was a skinny little guy so i guess i'm back to my old ways. makes sense i guess.
OK next maybe my mind is open to more stuff.
shit i'm in the nursing program. Weird hows it was something i fell into. because i could not pick one thing i wanted to be for sure.I like alot of stuff really. i never had a for sure dream. just that end goal where i am a
I remember though the many things i seriously thought of... teacher, counsoler, physcologist, lawyer, doctor, philosopher, sociologist, social worker, Animator, Game Maker, MOvie Maker, actor, musician, writer and so much more etc, etc, so on and so forth
haha kindergaten i remember drawing a polive officer when they asked me what i wanted to be.
All very possible. The longer i live the more i realize my potential as a person.
more talk later, i'm sleepy |
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[Sep. 5th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
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so why do we do this? because we are _________ beings and we want ____________. Yeah its true and thats why we do it cause if that wasn't the case then we would just use good old__________ or ________ on the comp. So unless this is gonna be published. F a livejournal. peace out |
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[Aug. 4th, 2006|09:41 am] |
haha well well well. back again for little. So i'm approaching 20. ah no more teen years.
another thing. I've realized this guy is really a put down to me. indirectly though. I know he ain't doin it on purpose cause he's a good guy. It doesn't usually cross my mind really. Then it does and when it does it gets my annoyed. Or maybe i'm just letting him bug me. He shouldn't really but i guess i've been bugged by alot things lately. So i guess i need to relax. But well out of school for the next week or two so i'm gonna hang like the Orangatang. if thats even how you spell it. andif they really like to hang. |
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[Jul. 26th, 2006|08:26 am] |
I understand now. nice one. that really helps me out. i see this world time and time again so me things i don't want to see. actions and words that spoil my conceptions. lives torn apart through deception. Few are real. Few want to be. They just want.... but of course who doesn't eh.
I NEED A MADAME NARF
Good thing i don't make enemies. Dammit this is idiotic. Cause it all comes back to me. Props to that one guy though. If what he says is true. then wow shit you are the man. you got heart bro. let's meet so i can give you a hand shake. What an effin G.
I take it back. XMEN UNITE!!
oh and i want a DS
fuck livejournal
semi fuck myspace
or as they once said at edwards
you're kool
you're kool
you're kool
you take your 15
you take your half
you're kool
fuck you, take out the garbage ya filthy fuck.
and fuck the word fuck. |
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[Jul. 19th, 2006|06:45 pm] |
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Hah thought i was gone but i just had to come out and say it. I got published! Let's hope this isn't the last time and there are many more to come in some way shape or form. A secondary goal should always be in mind and multiple trumps aligned hehe |
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| End Game |
[Jul. 15th, 2006|09:53 pm] |
haha so i'm gonna speak on this before i take a hiatus which i think it is for the better.So many times i wish to nuke this piece of shit. OK here we go
Alot of new people met at the movies. Though i hate concessions, especially the rush, In the slow times i get to know people and find out that sooo many kool people work there. made alot of friends. So its awesome really. The pay periods are kinda off though so i'm having a problem figuring out if i'm gettin paid as much as i should haha. Well Imma try to save a little. Though i don't know how much that'll work hah.
i have to say i'm still a damn klutz. Off the ball. trying to make things work. But i've come to a decision on what i will do. It makes sense, maybe later it'll seem different but for now it's right. I believe so. So i'll run that.
Other than that. heh i don't know. Cousin John called. interesting it was out of nowhere. Just checkin up which is kool.
Man he's hella koo haha. Just like pure koolness. Gotta look up those cousins of mine. It's crazy how some are like super older than me and have like 4 kids. DAMN. I can't believe it. Kids taught to call me uncle as they grew up. AMAZING
Things are good i'd say. But i just gotta stop living day by day or i guess week by week. Yeah i'm good at it. I'm good at attacking problems directly. On coming up with i can do and doin it. It's just crazy really. yeah
And this journal stuff is crazy. I'm used to the OG stupid journals in elementary where you were forced to write in them. Funny to read.
Understanding... I'll fall back on my theory of life and thingys from my poem. Which i am happpy to say i'm gonna be getting that copy of the maganda magazine sooon in the mail. Not the greatest poem but it reminds of what i was thinking during that time.I want you to understand yourself. That was a good way thinking there Dean. i better reapply that a little now.
OK OK i'm just gonna go now. Changin time. Thanks to all. Goodnight Neverland.
Edit
So i just thought about that another quote or i guess a convo that my teacher was telling me about. Well it just went like this
"All things in Moderation Sharon"
"I know I know but its so hard"
Hah makes more sense now i guess. i knew what she meant but now i can see it more. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2006|10:57 am] |
Haha. this journal thing is just kinda a way to just spit out any thoughts i have. A transition from mind to i guess text. Though it doesn't exactly the way i want it to.
I've had a revelation again.... Well its not so much a revelation, but a reminder.
Just all this stuff about future.
That i shouldn't be content with i have and that i should be lookin for more.
I've been really just all around the place and i guess i haven't just sat down and down what i got to do. I waste a good amount of time i'd say, on things that shouldn't be taking up my time i guess.
Interesting though how i haven't watched anime OR played Vgs for a hell of a long time. haha i guess the slow dloads have caught up with me
But yes i'm trying to get at every aspect of my life with that drive i have when i set my mind on something. I should approach evrything like that.
annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd i need to sleep before 12. EVERYDAY. I must. I'll try not to make any excuses. Or i guess be ready to sleep by 12.
Oh and this week will be the last week of major eat outs i think. No eating out unless with people or if its subway or something. I'm just using up all that money.
I WANT TO ENJOY THIS SUMMER. Things are going to heat up soon and theres somethings i still wanna do before that.
So about a month of summer left..... Count it Down |
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[Jul. 11th, 2006|04:30 pm] |
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ok i did my thang. now can rest a little. Oh and theres a best buy in Vacaville now... ^_^ |
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| TIME TO GO |
[Jul. 11th, 2006|09:31 am] |
GOOD LORD THANK YOU!!
THank you for letting me have this opportunity, thank you robin, thank you assistant Dean.
I saw the sign. I really did. I don't think this stuff is conincidence anymore. All those things that have happen to me. All those things i hear and see. They mean something alot of the time. I guess i need to open my eyes more to these things. I need to stop F%$^&ing MEANDERING. I got to get on the ball be right to the point. I've been letting other things occupy my time. I've been making decsions that are stupid and i know i shouldn't do. It's time to get down to business. I'm tired of this foolishness. I'm tired of being TIRED.
One side is thinks of things as simple clean cut and concise
The other side sees the complexity and affects of a decision
Taking risks, staying true, withstanding pressure, being your own person
I'll say this. F the digital. Straight to my heart. Artificial shit is stupid. I need to move... |
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